On 3rd bottle wine myself.................................. Toying where my life is going.......... Nowhere!
Hospital, railway arch or an early grave if you keep that up pal. You need a new challenge to throw yourself into rather than wallow in self-pity. You cannot change the past only plan for the future. Don't go beating yourself up. Make a plan for a new, better you and put it into action. It doesn't have to be overnight but you need to decide what you really want from the rest of your life and go out and get it. Hopefully it isn't being the most popular guy at the bottle bank.
Get yourself an Endruo motorbike and go out in the countryside, you live in a beautiful part of the country, just sober up first.
I was going to suggest that. Hire a bike and go on a backpacking roadtrip for two weeks. Clear your head and have some time off. Grab a change of clothes, a camera and a bottle of water. forget home life for a while. Your other half might also learn how useful and important you are helping in everyday life. You both need a break from each other, and you both might benefit from it. You're well overdue a midlife crisis!
Forget the bottle Koolpc, been down that road myself which ended in two strokes due to alcohol narrowing the blood vessels in the brain, 2 years on I have made a remarkable recovery partially due to not consuming any alcohol at all.
If you arn't willing to do that, head for your daughters school and ask them if you can help out. Your interested in computers and DIY, so ask them if they need anything doing. You might end up with nothing, but if they do give you something to do you would take pride from it, and your daughter would be able to tell everyone 'My daddy did that'. It could be some painting, could be installing software, just somthing that you can do and would keep you away from these ****** up things you keep saying. It doesn't have to be a big change, just something you enjoy for a while to clear your head.
Good on you astra for coming out with that. I lost one of my brothers from the drink. He kept drinking until one day it caught up with him and he had catastrophic organ failure, found slumped over in the front room of his flat. Six years on and I would never drink more than two days a week. It's not for me, but for my family. I've seen the devastation it causes first hand. I would not wish it on my worst enemy. Kools you might wish it on, but would you put your daughter though it? You might think the OH doesn't give a **** about you, but she sure will if you go. You can happily go for it by all means. But what does it mean to everyone else? Coming out with these comments means, as far as i can see, you couldn't give a toss about your daughter. If you really 'love' her, why do you want to put her though the loss of her father? This topic is too close to home for me. You coming out with this absolute ******** is really worrying. Get professional help.
Reading what i just typed makes me feel upset. It brought me back to the very morning i had the phone call from my sister, 'Peter is gone'. A moment I will never forget and a part of me that is gone forever. Going to make myself a hot chocolate and read a book for a while. Good night lads.
With you Joe. Lost my big sister pretty much the same way and she was only 29. Destroys families and she left behind a 3 year old boy. Hurts just to remember. koolpc - there are lot MUCH worse of than you, don't go joining them.
I thought I'd be clever and change 12V halogen down lighters to LED, but it doesn't work. The electricians on the electrical forum explained why, 2 hours wasted fiddling around checking things but I know what to do now. Did my tax return on line. Looked for a piece of wood for a mate's daughter to make a stool as a school project. Raked up five builders' bags of leaves compressed down so hard that it took two of us to drag them to the compost heap. Helped Mrs S decorate the Christmas tree, Talked to a mate about tractors. That's about it really.
Attended an End Of Life course at work this morning, then straight home to pick up my Yamaha keyboard and entertained some old folk at the church hall this afternoon. A good day.
I was on a first fix job running Cat 6 and RG59 around what will be offices. Nothing exciting here Knees not to happy, been up and down a stepladder most of the day.